Wired.

Cover up; Hide.
You know that's all you can do.
You can't change.. You were wired this way.
No matter how hard they push and pull; you hold tighter.

It's all you can do.

Speak.

One
Two
Three
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Four
Five
Six
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SPEAK. Say something.
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Seven
Eight
Nine
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What if we only had TEN seconds to explain. To mumble out our thoughts that don't  make sense to anyone. I sit here and think. Think about words and what they mean and how we say them. "What if's" fill my mind and I can't control them. They tangle up and I become confused; stuck. I don't know what to say. I have never been good with words; with explaining. They tried to combine to make a sentence; to roll off my tongue; but I only had ten seconds.
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Ten.

Crazy, Stupid, Love.

Rock Out.

Rock out like you just won a prize off a cereal box. Rock out like you just won an ulimited amount of  money.

Like you just married your High School Sweet-Heart.

Rock out as if you just won The Price Is Right. Like you have someone to dance in the rain with and hold their hand. Like you just jumped out of an airplane  and are flying, flying, flying. Rock out like you just kissed that boy you have always liked. Like you will never age and stay young forever. Rock out like you just lost inches of your waist and you can fit in those old pair of jeans. Rock out.

Rock out like there is no tomorrow. Like there are no punishments and every consequence is good and you can do whatever you want. Rock out as if we never ran out of days. Like there was no High School. Rock out as you would if you were all alone dancing to your favorite song. Like you just met your favorite band and they liked your shoes. Rock out.

Rock out like you never have before. I dare you.

Nothing.

It can't fix anything.
Duct tape.
Duct tape can't fix my mistakes. My many mistakes that can't be taped over.
They can't always just be covered up with a thick mass of grey.

It can't fix my fears, worries, and doubts.
It can't fix how I see myself in the mirror. How I see every little blemish on my face, and every flaw on my body. It can't fix anything.

 Duct tape can't fix my heart. My heart is not a piece of plastic that needs tape. It is alive. It craves, and it breathes for something more. It craves for you. To whom I wish I could hold onto forever. But duct tape can't give me you...It can't give me anything.

It simply leaves me with nothing but a roll of duct tape.

Bunch of Lies.

I changed for you, and now I want to change back.
But I've realized that maybe I never changed... I just became me.
And now being myself doesn't seem to be possible with anyone but you.

I gave you all I had and now all I have is broken memories of what we used to be
and what I miss most.

I need you.
But I can't pretend anymore.

I can't pretend I never think about you, dream about you, that every song brings me to change the channel with hesitation. I want to forget. But I can't and neither can you. Don't stare at me and tell me you don't feel that passion to be together. That burning ache to be like we used to be! But who am I to say what we had. I have only found that love is a bunch of lies cradled by emotion that could burst at any moment.. It's all a bunch of lies.

Lies. Lies. Lies.

I don't need your lies anymore.

I Will Wait.

For what's it's worth I never meant to hurt you.
I never wanted to cause you utter pain.. but

For what's it's worth I deserve better.

I deserve commitment, passion, love, and sweet kisses.
For what it's worth you never really cared.
You call in home sick. You pretend I don't exist.
You never reply and I'm calling in home sick this time.

For what it's worth, I still Love You...

I still crave for you to be next to me.
I still think of you over every cheesy love song.
I still wish you were here with me to just hold me...in silence, without a word being shared.

For what it's worth I will wait for your reply.. I will wait for you because we both deserve each other.

Let Go.

There is nothing more to do.
We have been waiting to see.
Waiting to see if we could just sit here and something would happen.
But this is not what they want...They know what I need.

They said let go.
They said to not hold on so tight.
Relax
It's going to be alright.
They said to stop thinking so hard. Thinking about what doesn't matter.
Let go.
My bones said to move. To get up and do something for yourself!
They tell me to not dwell on death, but rather what I'm going to do.
They said to breathe. *sigh*
They said to release all that is holding me back.
My bones said to keep walking.
They said there's still more miles to travel. Life isn't over yet. Keep Going.
They said they ached and were in pain. My bones. My bones.
They said to not worry if they break, but to just  keep pushing and forget about the pain.
My bones said to LIVE.
For they won't las forever.
They will not always be this strong.

My bones said to LIVE. Live if not for me, for Yourself.