Full Circle.

Even after I met you, I told everyone that we were "just friends."

Even after you asked me to be your girlfriend for the first time, I broke up with you six days later.


But being you; you waited for me to come around. You waited for me like I'm waiting for you now.

 High school ended and you would leave in June. I don't remember that summer at all really. I remember everything up to that Monday when it would be the last time I would kiss you, hug you, & feel my fingers stroke through your curly hair while you looked at me and whispered "I love you" in the rain.
I remember that.. I remember that like it was yesterday.

If I could write you a letter this week, I wouldn't know where to begin.

Every moment I think about you, my soul grows deeper in love with you.

I think about how ticklish you were and how much you loved to play with my hair. Or how you always picked me up when we hugged and I would wrap my legs around your waist & kiss your nose.
I think about how you took a part of me with you when you had to leave and how I won't get it back until your home again.


I think about anything;
and it reminds me of you.

*Insert Name Here*

I never thought the words "I love you" would become such an understatement. They seem to leave out something or forget a memory;
because I don't just love you for the present; but I love you for your past & what we could become in the future.

I adore you.

I crave you.

I want nothing more than you.


But, for lack of a better word, I love you.

Passport to nowhere.

   & so began our journey.

From that moment I knew life would be a good kind of different;

  It would be filled with adventure, mistakes, and a love that would last for eternities.

We would only speak when necessary 

And you would take me away when it was time,

Time to just escape it all again. 

We wouldn't need to worry about anything but us and the comfort of each others skin,

The world would be at our finger tips &

We would dance under the stars.

Time wouldn't exist because we would only base our days on the rising and lowering of the sun.

Let's get away darling and see the world.
Just you & me. 

"I am the Light of the World..."

He knows me & He knows you.

He already went through it all so He could succor to our every moment of weakness and trial. 

Suffering in pure agony He did His Father's will, He could have said no more, but instead, He didn't.

Christ never leaves us; we may step away, but there is never a moment when His hand is not stretched out. 

The moments of loneliness are only us forgetting who is always there. 

Forget not to whom you belong to.

We are heirs to a Kingdom of Glory & never ending happiness. 

This pain will go away.
This heartache will pass if we but give it to Him.
Give everything to Him and He will take it away to give you pure joy.
Let Him awake your soul.
Let Him refine, refresh, & bring to your remembrance the great plan He has for YOU.

Let our faith carry us to be better. To never doubt what we know is true.
He is our shepherd and He knows His sheep.

Never forget. 

Dear Elder.

Lately I've been thinking about you; but that's not new.
I've been thinking about how as soon as you left I could write poetry again. There was no point to writing when you were here because I couldn't even put my thoughts into words without sounding like a rambling mess. My dreams had finally turned into reality. My plans turned into Our plans.

Now here I am, reminiscing. Hoping you know that I love you. There hasn't been a single day or moment you don't cross my mind. I decided to wear your hoodie you gave me today. I haven't been strong enough to put it on since now. But knowing life is changing and moving at a rate that I can't keep up with, I needed you close. I needed to feel the sense that you were wrapped around me holding me so I could hear your heart beat while slowly kissing my forehead and squeezing me tighter.

I just miss you. I know you're coming back, but today, going through all of this, it made me realize I need you and want you more than I have ever wanted someone before.

You cause me to tremble and make my knees goes weak. It's sounds cliche', but  I love that.
I thought about how stubborn I was with you and how patient you were with me.

That moment when I thought it was time for me to walk away, but realized I couldn't. We talked for hours, and sealed our promises with a kiss.  I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I miss my Elder. I miss my best friend who conveniently is the person I have fallen completely and absolutely in love with.

It wasn't fate that brought you to me, it was divine intervention.

& I will see you soon My Love.